Bio yesterday was pretty ok.
Confident of passing, just not sure whether will it be a good pass or a borderline pass. Oh well, right now I just want to pass all my modules... cause it's the foundation modules, I must master them no matter what.

Took my Inorganic and Organic Chemistry paper today . Fucked it up real bad, I think it's the only one I fucked up so far. But at least other people said it was hard too, so I don't feel so left out :]
Took my Dip Plus paper afterwards in the noon. Kinda fucked it up as well, but ... Dip plus. is an expected-to-fail subject.. it's like A Maths when you were first introduced to it. Only gifted people could ace it on the first try, and of course I'm not one of them ...

tomorrow's the last paper. Intro to Chem Eng. Kinda easy subject (hope the paper's easy as well :| )
sigh~ I hope I only fail Org & Inorg Chem and Dip Plus for this exams. Don't want my parents to nag at me so much, when it's just my first year... the tests and exams are gonna get harder and harder. I'm keeping my fingers crossed I don't fail any modules at the end of the year cause I don't wanna repeat any module next year..
It'll only add on to the stress I'm already facing .. And of course, parents will nag at me even more ... double kill -.-

ok bye I can slack abit after tomorrow.
No school on Friday. Yayyy

hmm today was a hell of a tiring day .. considering I had two papers to take and I only slept for one hour yesterday night.. couldn't adjust my body clock back in time..

but I managed to survive though.. and both papers were manageable (luckily) ..
but I just pray that I can pass, because I left out some heavy-marks question, but overall I managed to do at least 75% of both papers .

there was this super bitchy Linear Law question for my Engineering Maths paper.
try manipulating y = (x-b)/(x+a) into a linear equation ... and that question alone was 16 marks.. plus another 14 marks question which I suddenly forgot how to do ... and some careless mistakes here n there .. I'd probably get a 60+/100 if nothing else goes wrong..

right. Tomorrow's Bio paper. Kinda like that subject, ok bye. Good luck to those taking mid-years now as well .

Yay love my new skin... although it's kinda plain.. haha
ok cya
sigh ...
I'm becoming more and more pessimistic
I fucking hate life .
Argghhhh

I have nothing much to blog about ..
One week of the holidays have just passed
Two weeks of holidays now remain

Met up with some of my Sec4 classmates last week and it made me miss my Secondary School life even more :(
I seriously hate the feeling of missing something.
Even though I wasn't so close to my classmates, I still miss them, for going through Sec3 and Sec4 together as a class.
All the randomness, all the epicness, all the laughter and joy we shared in class, all the trouble we got into, all the times we spent studying together for O's, etc.. Ahhhhh T.T I wish 2010 could repeat itself! :(

All those sudden flashbacks are making me moody nowadays :(
and I fucking hate the new topics that are being introduced for my course. Remember the time when you had just begun your Secondary school life, and algebra was the first thing they introduced to you. It was completely alien to you, but you had no choice, you still had to learn it by hard as it was a foundation topic.

I feel exactly the same way right now. The only modules in which I think I can cope with are Microbiology, Engineering Maths and Organic Chem as these were my strong topics in Sec4 (although I didn't take Bio lol). The others are like making me feel that 'Sec1' feeling again ... I fucking hate it

The reason why I loved Sec4 so much more than from Sec 1 to Sec 3, was because I only had to study for O'levels .. especially during the period where every subject had beem taught finish by the teachers and we only had to do revision, no more lessons left to take, so I could do all my revision papers, read all my textbooks and revision notes in peace. I had a certain aim when I was studying, I knew what I was studying for, I knew that after studying, it would help me do well for O'levels, therefore I could get myself motivated to study.

But right now, I'm back to that Sec 1 feeling again, where I'm so insecure, I don't know what I'm studying for, I didn't grasp what the teacher was trying to say in her lectures, or maybe I'm just a slow learner. Because of that, I don't have the mood to study at all, cause I just freaking won't understand what I'm studying...just like in Sec 1 again !

And then I won't be able to study in peace, cause I'm not sure of how tough the future topics will be. Will I be able to cope, or will I just crumble under additional stress. Fuck it, all these insecurities are driving me mad right now. God, please give me the motivation to study please! T-T get rid of all my insecurities!!! I want to get a good GPA...
Even when I'm taking a hot bath, or lying down in bed listening to music, all these thoughts will come into mind. I can't just sit down for a moment without encountering these troubled thoughts... I really can't ...

Sigh, and I miss being able to talk to someone every day. Back in my Sec4 days, I could sms someone everyday to chat about our daily lives, happenings and so on.. I could share all my thoughts with her. Even though she made me sad quite a number of times, she still provided me with a listening ear. We haven't been talking recently, but we're still friends.. but those days when she was more than a friend to me, will never be forgotten :(

2010 has been such an eventful year for me, not just because of O'levels, but because of all the things that happened in it.
I guess I cherished 2010 all the more as it was going to be my last year as Marist,(FYI - I've been a Marist for 10 years) and the last time I could ever see my classmates :(

sigh... I miss so many things about Maris and those 10 years that I spent there that I just can't name them all... =(
All I can hope for now is that I will get over those wonderful memories as a Marist and concentrate on my 3 years as an SP student.
Other than that, I think it's all part of growing up =|
Peace ~

Okay,the holidays are finally here .. a much needed break from the Poly term :\

gah,I've been late quite many times already and my teacher said if I continue being late, a warning letter might be issued to my parents ... screw it

Now that I have to wake up 2 hours before the start of every lesson, I cherish my Secondary school days even more. Now I have to take and MRT from Kovan/Serangoon all the way to Outram Park, then change line and have to take a few more stations until I reach SP. Back in my Secondary school days, all I needed to do was to just take a 5min bus ride to Serangoon station, then take the circle line to Bartley, which was just one station away ..

Secondary school lessons started at 7.40 everyday and I could wake up at 6.40 and still be on time.
Now, even when my lessons in SP start at 8, I still have to wake up earlier, at 6 .
And I have to leave my house by 7, if not I'll be late.

In my Secondary school days, if I left my house at 7, I would take my own sweet time and stroll to the bus stop and maybe get a cup of coffee along the way...
but now, leaving at 7 is the latest I can leave, even when lessons start later now.

Could be that I'm not used to it... cause I've been a Marist for 10 years ... therefore I'm so used to travelling less than 30mins per trip to or fro. Now I have to take at least one hour per trip. Grrr, so sad :[

Screw this, I can't wait for the fucking circle line to be complete, by then there would be Buona Vista station, which is just one stop away from my school. I could then take a bus to Sgoon every morning and just take circle line directly to Buona Vista and take the Green line one stop to my school.

Or I could just convince my parents to rent a place near SP .. that would be the best of both worlds :D
Easy for me to travel to school everyday, don't need to wake up so early , don't need to panic about how much time I have left when I wake up , don't need to worry about transport fees..
oh yeah, that would be great ^^

If only it were that easy ... o.o sigh~
I hope I can use this short 3-week holiday to catch up with my studies ,which are seriously lacking behind. LOL
And of course, catch up with my Marist friends, god... miss them like hell :(

Hopefully, I can settle down and convince my parents during this period of time to make the next 3 years of my life as an SP student more fruitful and enjoyable.

EXAMS AFTER HOLIDAYS . SCREW IT !!!!!!!!!!!